Tuesday, January 12, 2010

i wanna make a difrence

I wanna do a singing concert for cancer kids. I wish i could start something but im not sure how. I would love to help many.It's jsut hard for me to do that concert.I want to put my dream and my kindness together .I'm stressed out! I don't know if im going to help anyone! I wanna help but I dont know how to get started. How am i going to put my music and my helpfulness together? I wonder...

waiting for a sighn

I found out today that my friend's mom had cancer and servived! I was so happy to hear that.I also just found out that my grandma also had it. And she is still alive! I'm a happy person bout it....... Im still worried bout stacy's son! I dont know if he's going to be okay just have to wait and see what gods plan is! I hope Gods plans are good to him!

Monday, January 11, 2010

Stacy is one of the mother's who is fighting along side with her son. Im a person who has to be VERY proud of her to be able to stay cool in front of her son! She is one BRAVE woman! i have to say she is cuz she is! Im going to keep her in my prayers.!!!!!! I can't get her out of my mind! theres no way I can't get her out of my mind! NO way! O: ) this is an angle to protect her and it is also a protection to keep this guy away 3: (...............
I dont know if im scard or depresed or even both.I just dont know how to deal with the pain that is going on.It's makes me even more depresed when that person or the loved ones around that person cry or get scard... It just makes me more emotional. What am i going to do? i cry and think bout all the worries and sadness. I can't imagine how they feel. I bet it's way worse for them... how do i know what god will bring to me and the cancer children? What's going to happen to all the loved ones of them? How do i know im might be one? these are thje qustions i ask my self...
Being a person that cares bout people with cancer i finally know how it feels to have a friend that has cancer it makes u feel like ur depresed bout it! My friends tell me how it feels, but now i know.You feel depresed,scard,and you feel worried. I've thought i go threw a lot. i went threw anxiety and that didn't stop me i NEVER thought i would make it this long.I was REALLY scard,but i got better.Ever one said it's hard losing a loved one from cancer.i learnd a loved ones death is DEPRESING, I was seven when i lost my poor dog. I feel REALLY depresed and I cry ever time i think about it. I never thought I could feel REALLY depresed. How am i going to get threw this?